There are days where I struggle, when the stress just appears to be too much,
Days when I just want to be alone, and remain completely out of touch,
It may not be visibly evident but I feel the pressure, my life emerges as one big rush,
It’s tough…my mind and body are weary, exhaustion is familiar and bone deep,
It’s by no means enough…my brain never slows down; some nights I can’t even fathom sleep,
Disparaging thoughts creep in, constantly telling me I’m going to disappoint everyone and fail,
But my strength is innate…instinctive, and I know in the end I shall prevail,
I recognize that I can’t just sail through life thinking everything will be simple and uncomplicated,
I’ve debated countless decisions, created my inner vision, and through hard work instigated my mission,
I refuse to listen to negativity. I’ve come too far now to give up on my dreams,
The road seems coarse, sometimes I feel forced to stay on route but my path is crystal clear,
I won’t be weakened by mere doubt, I can’t let my tears drown me out…I balk at giving clout to fear,
When uncertainty rears its ugly head, I continue to tread; silently encouraging myself to keep going,
I’m grateful in knowing others can’t hear, my cloak is too sheer, I can’t afford to adhere to limitation,
I can’t ruin what I’ve already built, I have too many people depending on my success and determination, I’m human which means I’m not perfect but some forget to take that into consideration,
I continue to open myself up but with hesitation…sometimes its hell being me,
I’m strong, confident, and expressive but that’s the only part some choose to see,
I hurt, I cry, I’m vulnerable just like everyone else, that’s the real truth of me.
Thankfully, I have great family and friends, who support and love me unconditionally,
Hopefully, that will keep me motivated and moving forward, for now is not the time to lie down and die,
It’s my moment to soar high therefore I have to maintain my drive and stanch sense of purpose,
No chance to rehearse this is real life; I’ve come too far and despite the obstacles and scars,
My talent will not go to waste, in spite of the mistakes I make; I have faith it will all come together,
I’ll brave the stormy weather, for worse or for better, and eventually it’ll all come to fruition,
Not in competition with anyone but myself, following my intuition, it’s not about wealth but being free,
Not everyone will agree with my choices, I acknowledge their voices but ultimately it’s my aspiration,
There’s no life vacation, no time for giving up, I have too many things to accomplish and achieve,
I believe in my ability and can’t resist the thrill of seeing…the things I’ve created grow and thrive,
Challenges may arise, tribulations I can abide because no matter the curves thrown at me; I will survive.
Robin M. Carroll
